wordless saturday

yes..it start when i started to miss you..

kids

when it come to little kids faces, no matter what kids around neither i know him or not, it turn sensitive in me.How much i love kid, i much i'm passion about their coquettish or behavior..kids never disappointing me at all. When you see at kids impression, the more you like to ask yourself , what exactly in his mine, what exactly he thinking...what matter he want to do.Kids mine really mysterious.

I'm back from lecturer hour and friend of mine stopped by 7E for a while. I'm not in and just kept waiting outside. Then, one guy with his little kid, same age with my buddy at hometown as i remember, step inside the store and maybe he don't realize that his little kid behind his ass and kept calling him , Abang Di..

Back to that guy, when he step inside, the automatic door was closed  immediately after he in and let that little kid stuck outside and he keep calling his uncle "Abang Di..Abang Di..."with kid's dialect..His Abang Di never realized he's outside and he can't in because the door seem impossible to open by his little hand. So he keep push the door until i come to him. I smile and open the door for him. He smile and smile without say anything. He ran over his uncle and Abang Di let he picked air kotak that he like most. He choose chocolate thing rather than juice.So kids!!!..haha

I'd just love that moment when i saw that kid, same old with my nephew, really smart enough, wearing watch but don't know the time, do the same hairstyle with their loved icon..His shoe absolutely in Ben10 theme. What else. I'm pity on them..what else they hope?..they don't have the energy like mature people have. They don't have money to live, they don't have anything. But they just have parents to depend on us. That why everytime i'm back to my hometown, i will check every of my nephews and play with them, ive got 5 so far. the youngest one only 1 years old and the older in standard 3 now. I looked into their eyes and feel, omigod, it seem hard to interpret..so i'm lose with them. No matter what they want, i tried to figure it out. What toys they need, i give it..But please, don't kick them, don't do anything that related to violence. 

??

Do you guys realized that sometime, the small issue like, we care for someone, i don't focusing on male or female, it maybe one of them if you feel so, we care for him, we help him as much as we can, we available when he need us, i mean between both of peoples without having any serious relationship.It is not like we like him, otherwise we just care for him over than any of our friend.So it also like, we care for him,then he really not really into us..No, he actually threaten us somehow we done it.

But to be issue for me, in this particular situation, i mean not really serious situation,let say he make a something review, and not mentioned you but he does't missed to mention all of his friend that related to the review..Something like this..

"Today is my really big day,There something that i would like to wish as my compulsory to all of you...***,**,**,***,**"...(he named all of his friends and your name isn't on the list...)

Yeah maybe you think that, you name isn't on the list is quite ok, but for me after i read all those thing, my adrenalin suddenly up until the top.i felt that, who i am beside him...why he not mentioning me.Why..why and why..we keep questioning for the answer...But then after that, we will avoid him for one or two day without tolerate.Offline the chatting bar, keep blinding with his post and so on.it took a moment to healing from something reason that we already not sure..because we think that we actually mad at him, but careful gurl, it maybe mean something...i don't know it..But when you felt in that particular way, you need to accept of all of the consequences. 

all by myself

I left you with this beautiful song sang by Charice that i adore her voice so much.It original version by Celine Dion that i reallf a big fan of....All by myself..It all about myself too that i've done all alone.Never to compete with anyone else...

royal couple KLCC through my lenses

Ok...i know....blog i dah lama bersawang...tinggal tunggu blogger bagi warning je kan...Not because i don't want to update, i have a lot to shares but when i start to create a post,then i just realized how lazy i am during that period..but this one,i really want to tell everybody..even the whole planet that!!!...Considering this is not my wishlists, i just called it mission unexpected accomplish...I'm just the lucky guy in this world that have a really unforgettable moment and even experience to see Royal couple Prince William and her lovely duchess of cambridge Kate Middleton!!! and the most memorable part when i have a shakehand with both of them.i'm the lucky person in this world..Ok enough said...

I'm with my boyfriend..i mean boy friend lah kan..kawan lelaki...bukan that type of couple..ok whatever..wake up early morning to catch the train...then finally we were arrived about 10am..In my mind,i just set just to look around to see the real princess that people always talked as fashion mogul,one of the Diana's replaced...I wanna see with my big eye..yes of course she's my favourite princess and i love how she's dress and everything that she wore just stunning...

Damn crowded with people

During that moment,i was stand at the corner of the first spot place the Kate limo might be stop..The peoples totally insane with the cheers screaming with flags and i just standing there with my camera like waiting for toilet queue..hahahah...not funny.Actually i saw like a golf car without window wait at the corner and they might be in that car and not walking as per usually the stars do..Yes it is..When they arrived,people just screaming with their name specially Kate!!

See how closed kate with me..this lenses without having any zoom

First though when a couple across me,i just wave my tiny hand..hahaha...and i can't see them clearly because people start becoming crazy and keep push people in front..So in my mind i finally said,.."tak bleh jadi ni..alang2 dah sampai,takkan nak usha je,kurang2 dapat salam dgn Kate"...Ok then

 Just ignore the police man ok.enjoy the lady

Also please ignored the women in blue..she just pretend to be sweet as Kate..huhu

After the not splendid moment at first spot corner, i ran over the park and finally stopped at one center port that not really crowded..Fuhhh lega ok...Then Kate out from car and start walking around the park..i said,ok then it my moment...Kate and William walked in front of me and boommmm...william hand finally sticked in my hand...And the best moment he said "thank god,..."and keep smile..OMG...i'm totally sweating!!!

William also cheap with smile..look at him

After a moment,Kate walked in front of me and about 10 inchi closed with my face guys!!!it totally crazy...i just said,Kate,u such a lovely..i love you..Even her perfume i can smell it clearly and it Burberry guys.!!!haha

Then i stretch out my hand to her and she finally hand my hand about 5second.it just out of my mine and she kept said hiii to people and smile..OMG...

i just love you Kate...Please welcome back to Malaysia

What can i say,they just humble couple that cannot stop from smile and it is true,Diana is inside Kate..The aura of late Diana, we can saw in Kate smile..She just perfect,stunning and magnificent..The dress she wore during that period is from Beulah and the pump from LK bennet.I hope someday i can design dress for her and i hope she can wearing it..ohh harapan...So enjoy the pic that i snap through my lenses!!!!not copycat from any other website...walla...

drama boy

oh boy clearly it is not the way that i've begin my practical here..I felt absolutely tired, my arm seem like to be torn off, super duper exhausted, jetlag all over around and to make a relieve with a short period, which is need me to sleep a couple more hour.


My best friend of mine wishing me to begging at my guy...really can i say he's the guy..hahah...pardon me.haha..he just my friend around and glad that he would be here at college as he know that i will arrive shortly in morning...sign cause the check it late 12 noon.So he prepared the key and let me choose my house in first order.So i choose the lower one which is easier and closed to the stairs.


After having a little bit shopping normally at TESCO and MYDIN as per budget destinations for student..hehe..It kinda eyesore to not to buy anything that related to the list item.So it ended with a big carpet since our room cover by cement floored, a plastic of junk food,**ok that true...and so on.


Hence the other student which is actually leave from Shah alam by bus normally will arrive 12 noon.So when they arrive, it some kind of murky for check in process, boys only is about more that  200 and need to span  3 floors. So for me i'm just felt relieved because i already in room.But......


Almost our junior being so spoiled..Hey boy, please don't make any problem with me and friend.My house empty about 7 persons which is consider for who does't have any room yet.So it turned when some of the junior have a talk to me and friend to move to the upper house because they want to come in with complete geng for a house.They don't want to separate at all.So i call my guy for clarification.He said to me if i'm done set the room, it ok to still be there, don't move, but some of his friend have a talk with me for moving cause it more easier to manage if we are separate of part.


After a quick annoying talk with junior that they need to be together so that they really can go to the site and waiting bus together...oh boy you kidding,so junior ok..as my friend quote "only junior will going for walk and eat together"..haha


So i just want to tolerate with them and consider to move.Ok i just yielded with younger brother so that i can avoid my tone up.Without anything else to say, we packed all of our stuff and move.Before that, i already duplicate a key, and it turn to throw away over the window.Who care.

Some of junior give gracious to help us carried our stuff.Ok it just drama and acting after all..don't you ever touch my stuff.let me handle it myself..I don't care at all..we live here without any drama, but we were spoiled by junior with huge of drama.Thank buddy..


So the reason i type this tread that i want to announce how much i hate spoiled junior...

im back

OMG...it been a while i'm not updating my blog..currently it is not always in the good mood with the hectic season...walla...examination week around the corner...It past two week i've been at home to do the everybody would love to..yes eat and sleep.Literally, a lot of story i want to share, but it just to scary to search blogger.com...hahah..where to start??fashion?life?dine?hotel?...you tell me..


So now i'm having a little nightmare maybe or not during my practical season..During fasting period,it just make me a little bit paranoid. I'm not kinda person who might say, i don't care to work under hot sunny day..but with me,i really care at all.To avoid of any consequences, i'll has prepared a little bit stuff so that i can manage my skin in a good quality..gituh..**material sangat...


In order to approaching fasting season a couple more day now, clearly i'm really thrilled because it seem like i'm having a roaming again...really??hahaha..it always been excited to back home celebrate hari raya if i'm a little bit far away from family.So there a chance for me to prepare, to feel the mood, to pack the bag, wait for buses and more..


Despite it just Melaka only, for me it still consider far enough..hahah...who care right...So the mood is coming...i will update as much as possible....love from me...fizo anwar...   

it done

sometime we need to let something go... we can't keep something forever same as wife can't keep their husband forever cause of a husband belong to his mother forever..despite,let something go,so that the other thing can fill our heart at one moment.To let go,is just really an easy word.It is painful around,it is illness,it sometime become worst and worst.

So how bad it is,how pain do you feel,you need to try it.lepaskan someone yang you can't love anymore...andai dia kembali kepadamu,maka dia adalah milikmu...

hectic season

Who said on exam weeks,you are not allow to update your blog.See as me..on this hectic period,hectic week,hectic month,i donno which one i need to settle first.There a lot of upcoming program need to think.Dengan paper exam yang tak berapa nak feeling.Tak feeling ok bila kau tengok paper tu cam tengok aper kosong je..huhu.So which mean some of ustaz that i dengar their ceramah very frequent said that before you turn to examination room, make sure you called your parent to let them know that you are taking the exam.Same as me,i called my mon especially when im in exam room door.said that.Mom,tolong halalkan saya.tolong redhakan saya dan tolong doakan semua yang baik untuk saya.Honestly i felt calmed and no matter question in coloring paper may not made me feel down.I rasa even that question is so hard to answer,**the most part i tak baca pun note yang soalan tu..for sure lah tak bleh jawab.So when i looking on that question,walla i just wrote down and it  well finish.walaupun lebih kepada logic apa yang i tulis.It ok at least you'll not let it empty.Ok that not the point i want to story up here.It more of my schedule that i need to figure and organize it well because there no time goyang kaki**or goyang gerudi??..a lot of program this two upcoming month.I'm so tired..Oh my.....

2012

everybody talking about new year eve.Is that really important or it is one of the ritual that must be celebrate or what?..i don't have any idea why we need to wish, to celebrate or to be concern about new years.I don't see any special of that.For me,it is enough with after magrib prayer,continued with yassin n doa,that it after that move on with your life.I don't have any azam which mean not about for new year eve or the past to remember,No lah..tak perlu,yang lepas (2011) let's it be.

Yang lepas tu lepas lah even it roughed time or good time.No need to remember and crying over the window.Huhu...My friend had asked me a couple of hour ago,tak kuar gi mane-mane ke celebrate NY...I just said to him,Tak kot,kat bilik sahaja..I'm not kinda person who like to go about partying or bersempit tmpat yang ramai orang.Rimas lah.Lagi-lagi about concert or what,It can't be happen.Before this pun,my little brother(angkat) came shah alam to chill or what i dunno..asked me to go out with him.Lepak-lepak makan-makan,jalan-jalan,...lepak(sekejap it's ok),makan ok,jalan(jangan lama-lama.).I go out with him and he asked me about ICT.Never be there,so i bought him,even i'm not be there since i came to shah alam.

Dari bilik kolej i lagi dah nampak ICT,so i langsung tak admire nak p.Sebab dah budak tu beria sangat nak tengok apa ada,i ikutkan je lah.Ya rabbi,ramainye orang,ramainya family,ramainya rakyat...apakah??.After about haft and hour been there,i just said,jomlah lah balik,silau mata lampu banyak.huhu..hope he understand cause i tried to lied.haha...Then he wanted to go to Uptown sek24..Omygosss..nak jalan lagi..tak penat ke i tanya...ala nak usha2 katanya...Takpa bukan selalu dia datang jumpa i kat sini,so i bwak lah dia p uptown.Keliling uptown tu i tawaf!!kerana budak yang sorang tuh...sakit pinggang bukan main dah ni..I jenis tak bleh jalan lama.sakit pinggang.maklumlah dah tua..huhhu...

Ikutkan hati nak duduk je,biar dia jalan,,dah tak mahunye pulak jalan sorang-sorang.bosan katanya..ha folow la aku ikut bontot dia...I doa je lah cepat sikit dia letih,bleh i balik...Lega then pastu dia ajak balik dah..Ummmm kalau kawan-kawan i lain,,mmg i tak follow dah,..ni adik laki sorang yang maha manja lagi tu dah ajak,nak tak nak layan je lah..Nak2 pulak dengar dia bercerita pasal nak kawin,lagi i naik marah,penat dah nak nasihat,sekali nasihat,sepuluh dia balasnnye...I bukan apa,for me he just like a kid,really like a kid,keja tu ada,tapi yang tetap belum ada,kereta pun belum ada,duduk pun menyewa je and he about 23!!!did u think it too young to getting married?..Nak marah kang dia kata i tak mau dengar cerita dia masalah dia,kata i ni macam ibu tiri,.nak nasihat baik-baik,lagi dia naik lemak kata dia dah kenal dgn family girl tu..I mean,dengan dia punya real sister and brother tak pulak dia bercerita cam tu..Tapi dengan i really make me sick.Tahla,tak tahu nak cakap apa,ikut dia lah...jangan merana kemudian hari sudah.

So esok dah first january of 2012,umur pun makin meningkat,i hope that i dipanjangkan umur,murah rezeki dan menjadi manusia yang berguna,**bukan hanya sebab new year je i doa camtu k.Tiap2 hari..

And for my romate,even kita tak banyak cakap,i wish ur life happy and full of joy and penuh berkat dan barokah,i know you're better person,better friend,better brother too.Setiap dari perbuatan kamu,aku boleh mengagak..amin.

peganganku

Terkadang i berfikir,sampai bila nak begini.Hidup ini kadang kala amat mengerikan.I amat takut akan hidup.Berubah sesuatu yang baik amatlah susah dan payah sekali.Setiap kali i terfikir sejenak tentang kisah hidup ini yang amat kelam dan sukar,tiap kali itu jugalah nafsu menguasai akal fikiran.dalam minda terkarang banyak kisah yang tak mampu i nak ungkapkan.semuanya bergabung menyebabkan fikiran bercelaru.I selalu bertanya dalam hidup i.Apa yang i hendakkan sebenarnya..apa yang i cari-cari selama ini.Apa yang i tuju..Namun terkadang soalan itu tergantung dan i tak mampu menjawab.Fikiran mudah berubah-rubah.Hati juga tidak ada satu yang pasti.Pegangan semakin rapuh.hidup seakan-akan tidak ada arah tujuan.I seperti lalang.setiap kali angin bertiup,haluannya juga turut berubah.Terkadang terasa begitu sunyi dalam hidup.Tidak ada yang mampu mengubat.Ya allah yang maha pengasih lagi maha penyayang.aku berserah setiap jalan yang engkau tentukan untukku.Setiap daripadanya terselit ujian darimu.Aku memohon supaya engkau lapangkan hatiku.bersihkan mindaku.kuatkan semangatku.sejahterakan kedua ibu-bapaku,keluargaku,guru-guruku serta rakan-rakanku.Sesungguhnya aku KEMBALI KEPADAMU....

The love of siam

Ohh that really adored me.I'll keep meracau-racau meronta-ronta because of the movie.It's so sad i need to control not to be emo.The plot  is very well made.The casts,the promo,everything perfect.I love how they put the identity crisis among the teenager,and how they interpreted the feel,the emotional.

Ok i love The Love Of Siam so well and i keep watching it again and again without no doubt.It is lain dari yang lain.Well almost the indie film that i had watched before sama ada korean sad love story or English love film,i think this one is very cool and relax.I enjoyed so much.The story is about friendship,loneliness,how far your relation with you family,you mother,you father and the most highlight part totally from the main characters.Witwisit Hiranyawongkul as Mew,Mario Maurer as Tong

So who those yang tak berapa suka,i mean the plot of that film because it contained a characteristic of the love of friendship.I lebih prefer this kind of movie because my feeling can well straight and lain dari yang lain.Young boy,i mean the handsome one lah..hahah..

Tong

The part that really make me feel so sad  should be the last one.So sentimental and melancholic When mew finished his concert then Tong came to him and say...

Tong : I can't stay with you as your boyfriend but it doesn't mean that I don't love you

and mew just said,..

Mew :Good bye (with smile...yes he smile..so adorable)

and they break at that moment...then the last part when mew at his room..he put the doll noise that Tong gave to him (the doll noise actually the one is missing during they played mysterious treasure hunting when they kid)..and he keep looking at the doll and start crying.How lonely he is..That really menyentuh hati i...i pun rasa macam nak nangis sama...

Each of them need to make a right decision about their mutual understanding where not one should't be hurt.Mew lived alone since his grandmother passed.Mew did his decision to avoid Tong cause tong's mother convinces mew to end everything.

What got me so engrossed is the love story between these two teenage boys who are obviously NOT GAY. They're just two straight teenage guys who happen to fall in love with each other. They're not gay from the start and nor are they feminine enough to begin with. They are just two normal boys who, like some people out there, stumbles across forbidden love.

Tong 2007

Tong 2010

Tong 2011

Actually the film has been released on 2007,so that i really don't know about that since last year,but i'll keep hold and hold to download.

Mew 2007

 Mew 2011

The lyric of the song is awesome...I love how mew wrote based on his feeling to Tong.I'm not sure the title...but there the lyric...

The Love Of Siam

If i say that i wrote this song for you,

would you believe me.

It might not be as well written,

or beautiful like other songs

I want you to know that a love song,

can't be written if you're not in love,

but for you,i can write this song so easily.

You might have heard hundreds or thousands of love songs,

they might be meaningful,

but their meanings are for anyone,

when you listen to this song,

it is written only for you.

If you understand the meaning,

our hearts will be together forever,

Let it be the song on the way along

with only you and my voice,

that will be together for so long.

Just like a phase in one poetry,

as long as you love,you still have hope,

Every time i see your love shining in my heart,

i can see my destiny

There are so many truths in love,

In the past,i spend a lot of love,

looking for the meaning of it,

but i just knew that every time you are near.

I just knew that it life is a melody,

You are the lyrics to make it meaningful

and make life a beautiful music

Let it be the song on the way along

with only you and my voice

that will be together for so long

Just like a phase in one poetry

as long as you love,

you still have hope....

Maybe the lyric quite long,but if you listen to the music,it really enjoy..and the song is in Thai version.So i translated it to English.The lyric wrote by mew himself.So enjoy the moment!!!

7 perhentian

After finished my birthday sketch for blogger that i really adore..haha..really like..because he passion,really fashionable not like me,always sarung apa yang ada..No laahh..sometime we need a person to become a contoh so that we can move ourself to become more berjaya.haha..ok pujian agak melambung..So there his link..


zabigfatblog.blogspot.com


I need to back in hurry to my college because tomorrow morning i have an early class.So that i can't be clumsy to getting there.My sister told not to go back because it is going to rain.But i need to.So there it is,in my way,up to gallery mufors highway, dah rasa rintik-rintik hujan..So i need to stop before get wet and cold.So hujan still tak tunjuk nak berenti.I pun got bored and don't know what to to..ohh yes actually i know..

So this is pondok buruk menjadi tempat persinggahan ku..chewahh hahah

 How lebat this hujan..Tuhan saja yang tahu

So it began with puding roti that my sis packed to me.Let's kita makan dulu sambil listen to MP3 with the song Talking to the moon by Bruno marc

 The we proceed with Chasing Harry Winston.

Ok bye,i nak habiskan sesi pembacaan before hujan getting reda and i boleh balik kolej.


p/s : ala2 tujuh perhentian lakonan era fazira tak?..haha

hug me please

Lately i felt so tired and just wanted to sleep.I don't know why but it made me felt better when i'm in bed insided my duvet.Oh no i'm not sleeping beauty guy..not at all.I just sleep at night as normal people.As i said it just happened lately.I'm still awake,not in real sleep.But i just close my eye and feel nothing and avoided from laptop,book,food,etc.

When i not in the mood,so there it is.I don't know what exactly i think actually.There a lot in my head.Seem liked currently i undertake such a huge problem in my shoulder.Oh god,please help me out of this feeling.Ohh actually someone had said to me before.I heard from him,he told me that,if you want someone read and enjoy your blog,avoid from story about your life and feeling...What??Dear darling,i don't need a reader maaa...don't need at all.If i need a reader and really focus about blogging,to put everythings such hideous things form Nuffnang ads,your own nasty face top header,and so on,it not worth at all.

I do blogging just to be cool and relax.I do story what i feel,what occurred around me,my expression and my interest as well.I do not promote something that i don't have,or i do not feel it or i do not go.Lets say,some blogger really like to advertised about Ipad or whatever,and promoted it like it is very good and very sophisticated stuff and very useful but at the same time he did not use it at all.So where he know that stuff it really good??Is that hipokrit or what??

So i do blogging to spend my time,i do not playing football,i do not swimming etc.So what i have,what i do,this is what i am.Sory agak termerapu..but that the hakikat right..

Oh i do read a book "doa-doa harian"..it is a good one.very cheaper only rm4 that i bought today afternoon.Oleh kerana agak pemalas sejak-sejak kebelakangan ini,jadi haruslah mencari sesuatu yang mampu mengelakkan diri dari lebih malas.

p/s:tarik selimut,baca doa tidur..

Batas pemikiran

At lately,i had an emotional and hectic period of my life.Struggled with all the assignment,lab report and so on and i wonder,it is not too difficult for me to settle it down but yang menjadi tanda tanya terhadap diri i sendiri,am i really into it? ...Recently i had read the post on wall from my VC of UiTM and he wrote the quote and it sound like this,"anda tidak akan merasa penat dengan apa yang anda minat."..so on that time i've been wondering,am i really tired of what i've not finish now.


The curious is about what are things that i've been done, really easy for me to settle it compared to few of my friend yang terpaksa berteruk-teruk nak settle any task lecture given.To be honest,i'm not the one yang concentrated in class or lecture hall.it seem like i'm really forced myself to understood what i really not interested at all.So adakah i seorang yang tidak berasa penat dengan apa yang i minat...no the quote should be sound like this.."anda tidak akan berasa apa-apa dengan apa yang anda tidak minat"..So am i..I'm not really over it..I mean the course that i learn now..it quite heavy,really made me emotional every day,so i can't concentrate any of the content yang lecture bagi..But when i start complaining about the dumping of task, at the end,i do it well,complete and clean.


It made me crazy sometimes, when i list down what i need to settle it down from the Assignment,Report,practical under the hot sun then it cause my skin tanned a little bit,until mandarin writing yang tak berapa nak cantik bentuknya belum lagi settle..i think kalau orang cina baca tulisan cina i pun belum tentu dia understand tulisan cina i..It hard you know.So tu belum story lagi pasal assignment koko yang i perlu karang the article about six or more page individually then need to present it in front of audience next month.how can i?..to write the article is not easy as to present in front.i mean my public speaking increased well and as of i don't need any small text when i speak,this is the impromptu speaking when you really have to speak without any text.I think this is good for my future too.


One of the reason i really not interested with my course now maybe it is not me at all.It is not what i dream.It not in my body,in my spirit, but i need to learn it as the other.Oh god,am i choose the right thing for my life.I wonder andai kayuhan perahu yang i kayuh sekarang akan karam sebelum sampai ke pelabuhan..That what i really scare.to maintaining it until a year more.yes only one year,so i can feel contented.the next step are going easy i hope.


My mom always said to me and i hold it until now,she said...it ok if you choose a wrong course,at least you gained two knowledge.one of your interest and other one for your job,it can't be loose so easily,trust me.If you choose what you really into it,so the knowledge you got,just one.So run for more over knowledge so you can do your interest or you course you learn after your graduation.**actually the conversation is in malay


So i just hope,i can't through it with more diligent and hardworking at the same time pray and doa for good.Amin

life is short

life is short...so make it simple guys..Once i meet my friend at one night,i felt that oh god,the one yang dulunya fully of laugh, good behavior,hilarious men looked so serious because menghidap penyakit saraf.I dah lama tak jumpa dia.the last masa dekat langkawi i think masa ambil result SPM.That what i remember.

He so strong that time,really made me sick to laugh.But once i jumpa dia dekat sek.7 and i realized that everything was changed.Poor him,he tried hardest to walk sekalipun.Bila keluar ke mana-mana he just have a splendid time in car!!in car guys...what do you feel when we go somewhere and we just have to stay in car.

I tanya lah dah lama ke dia sakit.Rupanya dah 4 tahun lebih.I knew that he's fat men with many kekurangan.But he's my friend yang mana dulunya hidup susah senang bersama.That why bila i tanya dia moment ago,kenapa tak kerja,kenapa asyik duk rumah ,tak susahkan parent ke.and he just said to me that he just want rest sebab baru lepas habis diploma.I  tak terfikir pulak the diploma has been finished about 2 years ago.

i felt so terrible for asked that questions without hesitation about his body condition.and now he struggling with that disease.

After i meet him,i call the other my close friend to confirm about him,and my friend told me before this my friend use tongkat to move.my god i really don't know sampai macam tu sekali keadaan beliau.

I rasa sungguh kesian when i look at him like that..

To my beloved friend,life is short.enjoy every single moment of it.Don't be scare if the darkness cover.Just enjoy the moments.Hang out with friend,eat what you want.Pray for your happiness and joy.I hope you feel better and better after this..

Love,

Fizzo

wordless Sunday

Wordless Sunday..Silent Occasion 

Once, i realized that sometime silent treatment gave a lot of opportunities to me in this period.Andai kita tidak dihakimi dengan adil serta dilayan dengan proper instinct the level yang kita stand by the day.Kita sedar bahawa kita hidup di dunia ini adalah judgmental.Orang mengadili kita dengan apa yang kita lakukan,apa yang kita perkatakan.  

Silent for me is the way out from that particular moment yang tak berapa indah bila difikirkan.Bila kita mempunyai masalah with someone and there no solution to solve,or we were try to solve that matter and it became worst and sometime it will create masalah lain pula.

Silent bukanlah lari dari masalah tersebut,tapi ianya bertujuan untuk give a lesson atau memberi kita masa untuk memikirkan cara penyelesaian terbaik yang menguntungkan kedua belah pihak.Try to find another thing yang happiness yang boleh kita lupakan sejenak masalah tersebut..I really do that and it worked.I rasa seperti the world bukanlah sekejam yang kita fikirkan.Happiness sometime coming in different ways.So let be free for at least 3 days and then we will feel better than.

Orang melayan kita,bukan seperti setiap kali yang kita harapkan..sentiasa bermulut manis,sentiasa akan sentiasa menurut kata kita dan lain-lain..tapi orang melayan kita,mengikut perasaan dan peranan dia ketika itu.ada masanya marah dan ada masanya murung...Tapi andai dia sentiasa tiada untuk kita bersapa..maka there something wrong indeed.. 

i sedar,kita mempunyai banyak pilihan dalam hidup ini...Not just tertakluk pada satu pilihan sahaja..Kita berkata,tak mengapa andai dia tiada masa untuk kita,never mine yang penting dia sayang pada kita...What the prove??..Jadi pilihan i,there still has the other option or choose dalam kehidupan ini..

p/s : Andai kita tak mampu memiliki sebiji beg yves saint lauren,zara maybe totally fit...

so hard to say thank...

As-Salam..

When we turned so hard to make a decision,that must be annoyed and in order to satisfied yourself to bring it some kind of confident level in high,it really come with hard work.Then we realized that,the hard work we done it,not really work,we did it properly and at the end,what we want,is other than that we dream.

It so hard for me to bargain myself to say that,ohh that thing not really suitable for me at all,although i love it so much.In order to explain myself not to over it,then it become worst and worst again.I started to blaming myself over and over why is so hard to get it.Why other people got it without any compliment and tricky.

Sometime that stuff is not a big deal at all, is just a stuff and why so difficult to get it.Why i need always to say that,it ok,there is no provision to be mine.Life is not always easy and i know it,but why the easier things, become the problem and not commensurate with the object that we want to..

When i look around,such thing he really good in that,he's really pretty good wearing that,and why should i?..Why i'm not the same like him.Because what he has,i don't!!!..Because when i want it so badly,it become a big problem to get it at all!!..I'm fortunately with my life,because when we talk about it randomly,they gonna say,there so much people around who are struggling to live,who are eat when needed,who are don't care about what they wearing because the food more important at the time.you should thank to god because where you're stayed now,much more in the comfort zone.

Maybe the time rules everything,and i realized that,when the things cannot be mine,at the last i can't pretend it is gonna be mine.maybe what they can't have,should be easy for me to have it well...